Poetry Is Crap


And now for something a little different before we resume our regularly scheduled program.


Poetry is crap.
It’s a process, it’s processed
It’s crap.

It clogs the mind
Stops up the speech
It limits and rivets and shortens its reach.
Jazzin’ and jivin’
“Look at this piece I’m drivin’!”

Poetry is crap.

Snap snap, “Yeah yeah yeah, baby I’m so deep
My monotone drone could put you —
to think!

Ha, that’s right, man.
Wet dreams of falling asleep in the river!
OH my words paint a thousand pictures!
My heart dies — ” blah blah blugh
Oh my nerve
What crap.

It’s the pick up line
The woo and the ooo
It’s that hunter that knows for certain
While saying, “Pay no attention to that penis behind the curtain.”
It’s crap.

It’s the frantic vagina!
Relax! It’s cool
No need to go old skool…
We’re walkin’, we’re talking
We’re coming clean

Mean what you say.
Say what you mean.
Poetry is crap.

What is 1000 pictures
Paint just one
And be done.
Why read between the lines if there are none?
It’s crap.

Say what you mean.
Mean what you say.
It’s going to come out and bite you, anyway!

It’s crap.

Let’s have some truth…yeah?
Let’s have some succulent, juicy, bloody truth.
The one, ugly, beautiful truth
The sickening, saddening, painful, glorifying, horrifying truth
Look into my eyes
If you’ve got the guts…

Trapped Screaming Face
Say what you mean.
Mean what you say.
And say it like there’s no other way —
Not this crap!

NOT this crap.

Whisper, scream, soft, violent
Say it with words
It’s death to be silent
It’s crap — this is crap
Just say it, say it, Say It — JUST SAY IT!

But, oh…oh you can’t?
You won’t?
Aw…you too scared?

Then excuse me while I lift up this lid
Pull down my pants and push
…and push

and squeeeeze




– T. Ray Verteramo

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What To Expect For 2015


2014, a “7” year, definitely delivered.

college-photo_2178._445x280-zmm7, the number of Higher Learning and Elevated Understanding, laid the foundation for promoting universal awareness in socio-political platforms, as well as interpersonal issues. In my country, alone, we saw its influence in civil rights and environmental issues; in science, such as automatronic A.I. developments, landing a spacecraft on a comet; and in health issues, such as depression and addiction. We have even seen an increase in college enrollment in the United States, particularly with non-traditional students – including myself, in fact! http://nces.ed.gov/fastfacts/display.asp?id=98


Jesse Jackson visits as protests continueWe also learned that we do make a difference when we speak out. Learning begins with communication. Oklahoma’s Norman high school students that spoke out against bullying and sexual harassment with their highly successful, #yesalldaughters campaign was just one of many public efforts to raise feminism awareness among young people. People took to the streets, for good or ill, to speak out against racial injustice in the infamous Ferguson, Missouri case of Michael Brown, sparking a nationwide, open-wide discussion on race and injustice. We learned the consequences when we don’t exercise our right to vote, as America suffered the worst voter turnout since WWII. http://www.nytimes.com/2014/11/12/opinion/the-worst-voter-turnout-in-72-years.html?_r=0

yesalldaughtersIn the private sector, I noticed people around the world become more aware of their own personal roles in life, learned how to be their own hero, break away from toxicity, set boundaries, and embrace their truth. In 2014, we got the “clue-by-four” from the Universe and each other. And now, all that new knowledge we have acquired will transpose itself into wisdom that we can carry and bring forward.

The-number-numerology-22189701-1732-1732So, with this, we have 2015 to look forward to, which sums up to a nice, big, fat 8 – the number of Fame, Fortune, Commerce, and Perfected Energetic Exchange. There is a lot to be excited about!

Be warned, 2015 will be not be for the timid. The “8” time is the time to shine. Spotlight’s on you! 2015 will give you the chance to really show the world what you’re made of and what you can do. With this, it will help match you with the place and people where you belong, so it will be vital that whatever you do, it needs to be from a place of truth. Entrepreneurship could be on the rise. Exciting new innovations from private sectors and unexpected, unknown talents could go viral and set a course for a new age in developments. Those in the entertainment industry and the arts could get those breaks that they’ve been waiting for if they’ve done the work. They could also see their dreams smash to the ground, if they haven’t.

spotlight-chairPhonies and posers will be found and outted. This not only goes for career and communities, but also in social aspects, as well. If you’re a bat, don’t try to fly with the eagles – they’ll have you for a snack! However, if you know you’re a bat and embrace your “battiness,” you will find the perfect cave where you can thrive. Take off the mask and show the world your honest face. Whoever you are, whatever you are, you’re not alone.

Karmic and kismetic connections will be plentiful and powerful. Meeting people for the first time might feel unexpectedly familiar. This is no accident. The cycle of recycling is coming to an end, so we will see the “go arounds, come around.” This brings us to…

justiceJustice. We will see a lot more justice and a lot less revenge. If we don’t see it in the courtrooms, we’ll see it in the streets or in the computer servers. This can be a dangerous, yet thrilling time where healing may finally begin where we have been damaged as individuals and as a worldwide community, humans and non-humans alike. We could see dramatic changes in judicial systems and law. We can also see more vigilantism. (Incidentally, for you tarotologists out there, the original numeral assignment for “Justice” was 8. Arthur Waite switched it with “Strength.”)

And finally, in romance, we can see a lot more passion and an increase in fearless intimacy. We could see a surge in more open emotional and spiritual communication with each other as partners or potential partners. We could see more people opting to meet face-to-face, rather than online. We could see a reemergence of “old-fashioned” courtship as becoming the “new” thing, where it would be considered cooler to give flowers than a picture of your junk. However, we could also see more short-termed relationships as those fireworks that start off so high, so soon could fizzle out just as quickly. It will be important, and a challenge, to keep those embers burning.


We will see more drama on and off-stage. However, we will also see our potentials coming to fruition. We will see Karma in action, and best of all, we’re going to see life everywhere living to its fullest, especially our own.

I wish you an exciting, wonderful, and most fulfilling 2015!
All the best, many blessings,

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As a gift, I provide free daily numerology (gnothology) updates on my Psychic Episodes FB page. I did not expect to see this coming, so I wanted to share, as a gift, to my WP followers.

It’s gonna be one hell of a day. This is cool!


As shared from Psychic Episodes – FB Page

** This is a very heavy, intense, and unusual numerological sum. It is essentially a triple-EMV (Earth Mastery Vibration), but not quite. It is extremely rare for the month, the day, and a ROOTED sum to match. That means that the sum had to be added together to get a number between 1 – 9 or an EMV, 11, 22, 33, etc. What this means in English, is the power of 1, which is the Self, Mastery, and Leadership is purified, augmented, and amplified in body, mind, and spirit and present in all planes.**

Pay very special attention to dreams, omens, and divination findings. Pay very special attention to your words and the thoughts that provoke them. Own what you do. You are going to “know thyself” in ways you’ve probably never thought, never believed. You’re probably going to be called on your shit and given praise where you didn’t think. You are probably going to be challenged…and meet it. The past may come back, but it’s up to you as to whether or not is stays. The old wounds may get open, but it’s up to you as to whether or not they bleed. You may be called to rise to an occasion that you would otherwise decline, but you may not have that option. How strong do you think you are? You’ll find out. And you may still surprise yourself, anyway.

Today, you just might find out just how f***ing AMAZING you are!!

Now go get ‘em…!







*For further Gnothology / Numerology exploration, also see:

11/11/11 — Cool, But Why? https://msrayspsychicepisodes.wordpress.com/2011/10/30/111111-cool-but-why/

Gnothology for Jenny 867-5309 https://msrayspsychicepisodes.wordpress.com/2012/05/08/gnothology-for-jenny-867-5309/

Gnothology of 666 (https://msrayspsychicepisodes.wordpress.com/2012/04/24/the-gnothology-of-666-one-hell-of-a-number/)

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Life as a Metalhead Priestess


“How can you believe in the peace and light of the Goddess and listen to that loud, angry stuff?”

“Wait a minute, I thought you said Wicca has nothing to do with the devil?”

“Fuck, I thought you were a Metalhead. What are you doing talking about that karmic and peace and vegetarian…shit, thing? I don’t get it.”

I get it from both sides. Happens all the time. But, just as one can belong to more than one club, be made up of more than just one race, I, as well as countless other Priestesses and Priests, can belong to more than one coven.

gaialaussel2I belong to the Goddess, all of Her 10,000 faces and the enigmatic presence of the creative force of the Grand Creator. I belong to a world of Nature and my temple is everywhere I go, because She is everywhere I go. I do as I will, with my best not to harm anyone. I feel connected, a part of a greater design and She, being the Ancient Mother, is in everything I am, everything I do, everything I touch, and everything connected to me. I am Her priestess, therefore, Her ambassador and instrument. And with this, She brings out the best in me.

I belong to the Goddess because She empowers me.

mosh-pit1And I am a Metalhead. I belong in the concert halls with the amps turned up to 11, making my ears bleed. I belong to a sister/brotherhood that makes no apologies for who or what we are, regardless of our sex, age, shape, size, beliefs, or hair length. I belong to a network of fighters, individualists, and rebels. I belong to a community of fearlessness and music that sears up your spine and rips open your soul and you let it because it feels sooooooo good!

I belong to the Metalheads because Metal empowers me.

But, I understand why I’m suspect to both sides. Both sides are misunderstood. Both sides are exclusionary from mainstream society and general acceptance. Both sides are strong, proud communities and so, both are feared. It’s not uncommon for Metalhead Clergy to be both single and solitary for this reason…


watain01Yet, what I find that some members of the Wiccan/Pagan community forgets is that of Her 10,000 faces, more than half of them are warriors. Durga, Bendis, Freya, Sekhmet, Ashtoreth, Kali-Ma, and the list goes on and on — these are not sugar-sweet-fluffy-bunny patronesses full of love, light, “let’s click our heels and go home” goddesses. These are badasses that would think nothing of tearing your village and your people to shreds if the cause is justified. These are champions, cunning and powerful, mysterious and skilled.

What some Metalheads seem to forget is you don’t have to be necessarily evil to be a badass. Our music is primal and violent, just as Nature is. But, just as with Nature, it must be balanced to survive. In the pit, it’s the one who helps up a brother/sister who gets the respect.

2275223546_3ffee6f8eeThere are many different paths and traditions in my faith and all of them, so long as they are Nature-based and connected to the Mystery, are acceptable. There are many different genres of Metal and all of them, so long as they identify themselves as such, are acceptable. The point of living as a Pagan is to live your natural truth, without fear. The point of being a Metalhead is to live your natural truth, without fear.

And as a Priestess, I represent all of Her faces, in my natural truth, without fear.

Yes, I do my best to live in kindness, caring, sharing, friendship, and loyalty. But, I am also a defender and in touch with my raw animal. I am in touch with my passion and make no apologies for feeling life, as well as living it. I sing and I scream. I feel Earth through the hand-drums of the ancient tribes and I feel the Earth in a double-bass onslaught. She is part of everything, all things friendly, opposing, beautiful, and frightening. She is the wind through the trees and the erupting volcano. She is tenderness and rage so therefore, guess what? Sure, She knows her aria…but you bet your ass She bangs Her head, too.

Ronnie James Dio (RIP)

10622805_410002762487892_553173569782476329_nHorns up! \m/…and Blessed Be! )O(

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Why the Eagle is Silenced: The Strength Card

Eagle Overlooking the Sea

I don’t own a TV. I haven’t had one since I was 18 because I have an addictive personality and on top of the smoking (which I quit doing over 5 years ago) and the eating disorder (which I’ve taken by the horns, became a vegetarian, and lost over 95 lbs since July 2010), sitting in front of a TV for hours would have just been in the book of bad ideas. So, in consequence, I am sometimes behind on trivia. One little fact I learned recently, which may or may not be common knowledge, but really struck a chord…

When visual media feature eagles, they overdub their natural voices with hawk cries.


Have you ever heard an eagle’s true voice? Or do you just think you have?

This really stumped me. “Why?” I asked. “Why on earth would we do that?” One of my friends responded on a Facebook comment, “Well, have you ever heard an eagle? They sound really wimpy.” So, I went to YouTube to find out for myself. As it turned out, I didn’t think they sounded “wimpy” at all. Frankly, I thought it was beautiful, sweet. I’ll admit it was surprising to see this powerful god-totem have this sing-song voice – but, that’s when it hit me. Right then is when I understood why film and TV producers use the hawk’s shrill instead of letting this magnificent bird speak for herself.

We expect strength and power to be synonymous with aggression.

Bloody_BrookGee, now, where would we learn this lesson, do you think…? Perhaps we learned this through centuries of muscling each other over land and religion? Maybe because most of us can name more serial killers than their victims? Or perhaps we got that idea when we were kids that when the bigger kids knock us over in the sandbox and take our lunch money and there’s nothing we can do about it. We, in the western civilized world, have somehow been programmed that “might is right.” We still have Indian nations sitting on reservations from the 1700’s because they were “infesting” land that belonged to them but we believed was put aside for us by a patriarchal, superior god. We had the guns and the germs, so, naturally, we wiped them out and considered ourselves “stronger.” The entire Roman Empire was built on bullying and conquest, therefore, Rome considered itself “stronger” than the rest of the world. The same can be said for the boss that illegally sexually propositions an employee, the politician that buys their votes, unscrupulous pharmaceutical companies, pimps and human traffickers, and fashion moguls. But, though these characters certainly have power, does power necessarily denote “strength”?

Which begs the question: What exactly is “Strength”?

The Oxford dictionary defines the word as: “Physical power and energy.” However, it also states, “The emotional or mental qualities necessary in dealing with situations or events that are distressing or difficult.”

maj08In the Tarot, the traditional Strength card is depicted as an immortal woman – a figure of the goddess, for She has a lemniscates above Her head — standing precariously beside a threatening lion, in perfect poise and calm. She is given the number 8, the number of Fame, Fortune, Commerce, and Perfected Energetic Exchange. However, She was originally assigned the number 11, Mastery of the Self, but Arthur Waite felt that EMV (Earth Mastery Vibration) was better suited for “Justice,” so he switched. According to David LeMieux’s “The Ancient Tarot and its Symbolism” (© 1985, Cornwall Books. Rosemont Publishing. New York. pg 123), the Strength card is aligned with the sign of Cancer – not a hot-headed fiery warmonger, but a mushy, squishy, highly intuitive and emotionally sensitive water sign — and the Hebrew letter “cheth” which means, “fence.” She is not forcing the lion to do Her will. She is not asserting human dominion over the non-human with weapons or threats, but is simply not allowing the aggressor to maltreat Her, using nothing more than Her mere presence. The figure in the Strength card is energetically aligned with the divine, in perfect trust that no harm will come to her. She sets Her boundaries (the “fence”), to protect what is Hers.

gallery_11The lion was chosen as a foe because the historical significance of the cat is a tremendous one. Not only is he recognized as royalty by most traditions, LeMieux goes further, specifically into the time period in which the Tarot was originally derived, and states that the lion “was always a greatly feared animal; in fact, some occult authorities consider it one of the signs of the devil (diabolism). In some schools, it is symbolic of the anti-Christ, but the majority considers it more realistically as the symbol of strength, i.e., the lion of Judah.”

The image of the passive, yet divine, overpowering aggressive, mortal evil is poignant and beautiful. Not to mention it is also uncannily like the figure of the Hindu goddess, Durga. In fact, this divine woman sitting calmly upon a great cat “represents the power of the Supreme Being that preserves moral order and righteousness in the creation. The Sanskrit word Durga means a fort or a place that is protected and thus difficult to reach. Durga, also called Divine Mother, protects mankind from evil and misery by destroying evil forces such as selfishness, jealousy, prejudice, hatred, anger, and ego.” (http://www.koausa.org/Gods/God1.html) Of course, there is no such thing as coincidence…


The flower that dares to bloom in the snow is no more or less stronger than the fighter. Strength is universal. Not everyone possesses physical power, but everyone has the ability to be strong. That is what this card says. That is what Nature says. True strength comes from our own voice. It is time for a new perspective. It is time to rethink what strength means to us as individuals, as a nation, and as a world.

It is time to let the eagle sing.

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We Are Not “Broken”

shell gold fix

“You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.” — Inigo Montoya, “The Princess Bride”

I resent it when I read, “We’re all broken” or other such shit because I am not. Neither are you or anyone else.

“Broken” means “unfixable, unusable, dead.” Well, I’m still breathing, I’m still thinking, I’m still moving, and I still have the faculties of my 6 senses, so I am still very much alive, and very much fixable. Not dead. Not broken.

eight of swords

We can all be victims. But, do you wish to stay as one?

“There is power in being broken.” No. Death is change, death is not here, death is a finale to the play, curtain down, done. We are overusing this word, we are abusing this word, and I believe we are confusing this word with “damaged.” We can be damaged. Our spirits, bodies, minds, and hearts can be dented, scarred, hurt, cracked, shattered, or even maimed. But, regardless of our condition, as long as we can still breathe, as long as we can still feel or think, we can fill the cracks, we can mend with either glue or gold. We can find healing to make us stronger and more beautiful than we were before. We just need to make a choice: “Do I want to be a survivor or a victim?”


Open Your Eyes

Now, you may be thinking, “Why on Earth would anyone want to stay a victim?” You’d be surprised…there is a lot of power in staying down once you’ve been kicked there. You can milk that horror story for all its worth and play upon the sympathies and empathies of your human community for all your needs, for as long as you need. You can escape reality and responsibility. You can throw your hands up and say, “I’ve been damaged! Can’t do anything for you! Can’t help you if I can’t even help myself! Sorry.” And you can tell who the chosen victims are from their language – they seem to use a lot of “can’ts” and have a natural talent to turn any conversation upon themselves. They find a way to make whatever is going on in your life about them. They make themselves the epicenter of your world while hiding in the shadows. They are the most miserable people you’d ever meet who will never hesitate to give you advice on how you should live your life, and Goddess help you if you don’t take their advice. This is the power of the victim.


Durga: Looks an awful lot like the Strength card, doesn’t She? (Pst — it’s not a coincidence…)

The power of the survivor is one of growth. While one remains a stump and rots under the weather after being cut down, the survivor is fearless. The survivor allows the roots to go deep, deep into the soil they come from and will look at themselves completely naked, as they are. They will push through the crisis, they want to understand what happened. They want to understand themselves. They want to know if there was something they could have done differently and they do not just want to change, they do. The survivor walks the talk. When they speak to other people about their damaging events, there is no glory, but no remorse, either. They listen to understand the others’ stories not for their queues to speak, but to gain a new perspective and connect with humankind. They will grow more powerful, taller, and bear more fruit to sustain themselves and others through joy and plight. The survivor finds greater challenges, but greater rewards.

The survivor is alive. The victim just breathes. But, neither are broken.

The toaster does not make toast anymore because it is broken. The bed can no longer be slept on because it’s broken. The car will not move anymore because it is broken. The living entity can still find food, make another bed, and move and love and think and feel and function because Life does not break. It changes, it forms, it formats, it spawns, it explodes, it implodes, and consumes. It is endless, tireless, and malleable. Though we may never be what we once were after the damage has been done, the power is not in the damage, but in our Living selves.


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And Then SHE Said To Me…

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The Hermit: Speak Softly and Carry a Big Lantern


Poor Hermit. No one wants to talk about him. Maybe it’s because people don’t think he’s sexy enough like The Devil or dramatic enough like The Tower, so they figure, “Eh…whatever. Hermit.” But, alas, people forget a very significant fact:

m7eh6x27There’s a reason why he made it onto a Led Zeppelin cover.

Mr. Hermit says so much with silence – and that is exactly why he earned his place in the major arcana. He is the bridge between the mundane and the celestial. He is the priest, the divinationist, the scholar, the madman, and the geek. And yet, don’t let his recluse demeanor fool you. Believe it or not, according to David Lemieux’s “The Ancient Tarot And Its Symbolism,” (Cornwall Books, 1985), his astrological alignment is Leo, as assigned in the Sepher Yetsirah, the sacred text of “The Book of Creation.” http://www.sacred-texts.com/jud/yetzirah.htm This is because his nickname is “The Bringer of Light.” Light is the conqueror of darkness, thus the significance of the lantern. The light of the lantern, in essence, is actually a piece of the Sun.

When Mr. Hermit shows up, he means, “Pay attention to the bigger picture. You are more than what you think you are.”

HermitHe reminds you that you are part of a grand scheme and therefore, connected with the stars and all its mysteries. He takes this literally, which is why he has taken refuge on a mountaintop. Here, he can observe the heavens without obstruction, to witness the way they move, then look down upon the village below to see how their dance affects life upon Earth. He is the scribe of these mysteries and an insatiable student who dares to ask all the big questions, “Who are we? Why are we here? What is the point of all this?” and will do anything, such as denounce his heritage and community and relinquish his creature comforts, to find those answers. He has stripped himself down to the bare essentials, keeping his priorities in check, to assure that he has all he needs to focus and examine life within the Universe. So, with this, he tells the worker to understand your craft and to the student, he reminds you to buckle down on your studies, because you just might find more than what you were assigned.

Mr. Hermit says, “You’re not alone.”

The-Hermit3He keeps the lantern burning so you can find your direction if you get lost. This can be figurative or literal. Some readers believe his lantern is a symbol of The North Star, to remind you that there’s always a way. And as he shines his divine light from his abode way above sea level, he is able to see things in a very different perspective than those hustling and bustling about beneath him. In this position, he can detect elements about our situation that we may overlook. If the High Priestess is the Keeper of the Secrets and the Hierophant is the Spiritual Teacher, then The Hermit is the Shaman. With his light he brings wisdom and healing in an unadulterated sense. He is incorruptible because he doesn’t heed the words of other humans, but takes his lessons straight from Nature, analyzes and connects those findings, and records them into a comprehensive record that is both sensible and full of riddles.

His gnothology, the number 9, denotes the Ending of a Cycle (Rite of Passage), Great Teachings, and Majick. He will guide you and protect you through changes.

Tarot___The_Hermit_by_artoftheempathModern decks tend to miss a very crucial detail when illustrating The Hermit — the Light, itself. Early depictions of his lantern showed the light shining with five points, the pentacle, which symbolizes the 5 elements, the stages of life, and the perfected human. This, however, was later changed to the six-pointed Star of David, which essentially means, “As above, so below.” The Magician shows this in his dual-burning candle and stance, with one hand pointing upward, the other downward. The Hermit, himself, is both above and below, therefore making him the absolute symbol of Connection between space and Earth, the micro and the macrocosm. He says, “Don’t listen to me. Don’t listen to what others tell you. Stay quiet now and listen to what’s around you and within you. Seek where the real answers lie. Everything you need to know is here.”

He has the courage to stay still. When The Hermit shows up on your table, he is saying, “It’s time to observe. Pay attention.” There’s something you’re missing or you may be ignoring your own instincts. He’s telling you there’s something deeper, something higher, something bigger than what you’re being led to believe. He’s advising you to check your facts, question your resources, and hold your tongue until you’re absolutely sure that when you respond it is with absolute truth. He’s saying, “Stop. Pull back. There’s another way.”

The Hermit is the gentle giant in his presence, titanic and small, that says, “Don’t worry about what you can’t see. Shadows are caused by obstacles. Here is the Light to find them. Here is the light to fight them. The journey is in the stillness.”


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Why You’re In “The Friend Box”

Dear super sweet person,

I can’t begin to tell you how flattered I am that you have feelings for me. You’ve been there for me when I was down, you’ve been there for me when I was up. In fact, I think you’ve even been there for me when I wasn’t anywhere! You’re so doting and thoughtful, easy to talk to, but…

I’m sorry I’m just not in love with you.

I know you must think I’m crazy because it seems like I prefer “bad” types or I keep going back to exes that don’t treat me as well as you do. But, as much as I hate to admit it, the fact is, no matter how badly I may be treated and though I can adore you, I can’t respect you. You try too hard by giving too much. And when you give so much that I couldn’t possibly give back, or you don’t allow me to give back, it almost feels like you’re bribing me into loving you and that’s just awkward. It also makes me feel really uncomfortable to think what would happen if I needed to end our friendship for any reason. Would you cry out loud? Would you hate me? Would you stalk me? Would you hurt yourself? I don’t know.



Just because I’m in your heart does not mean I belong to you.

I barely understand the person you are. I don’t even know if you understand the person you are. Everything you do has to do with me, which makes me wonder: Why would you want to channel all your needs through another person? Do you have any idea how much pressure that puts me under? What are you hiding from? How can I have confidence in someone that doesn’t have confidence in themselves?

I will be your slaveI have enough baggage of my own and no matter how much you may want to, you can’t carry it for me. You can’t take my past from me. You can’t take my pain from me. You can’t take care of me every single little teeny step of my life because that leaves me no life to lead on my own. No matter how many favors you do for me, no matter how many gifts you give, no matter what you do, this is my path, these are my feet, and I need to do my own walking. Though everyone needs a helping hand sometimes, I want someone to walk with me, not carry me. That’s not love, that’s co-dependency. That’s you using me to keep you from looking at yourself.

The more of yourself you give to me, the more you take from me.

If I prefer to be with other people, then that means there’s something they have that I need right now. Regardless what you think or how you feel about it, wrong or right, it’s not about you. I have to be true to myself, whatever that may be, for good or ill. So, if you really love me the way you say you do, then you’d respect that. If you really love me the way you say you do, then you’ll stand by, not block my way.

If you love yourself at all, you’ll realize that what you want isn’t me, but your idea of me and go find yourself a real love. I cannot allow you to identify yourself with my name.

King and queenI love having you as my friend. And don’t get me wrong, I love the idea of being treated like royalty, too. But, I want an equal partner in life and there’s a big difference between being treated like royalty by someone with their own crown and a slave.

I’m sorry.




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We Don’t Need No Education…sorta

Those who "know everything" know nothing of Knowing.

Those who “know everything” know nothing of Knowing.

Knowledge is power. There is no counter-argument. After all, that’s the main reason why professional divinationists do what they do. Once you know what’s up, you have the power to make a better decision. Once you make better decisions, you have better experiences, which brings wisdom.

Knowledge is power, wisdom is peace.

So, woe to the “Hermione Grangers” of the world who insist on cracking their skulls against the glass ceilings of their egos with the presumption that they have reached their absolute pinnacle of their skill or life. Whenever someone or something says, “I have all the answers,” beware because even the most revered would never make such an ignorant claim. A wise person never claims to be wise, a smart person never claims to know everything.

FUNNY-FUN-FUN.COMNow, granted, that doesn’t mean you should discredit what you do know. After all, if you’ve taken the time to research, study, listen, explore, and hone your craft, skill, or industry, then you absolutely deserve respect and attention when you demonstrate your credentials. However, to pin the “Buck Stopped Here Award” on your coat of armor will keep you from rolling with the times and staying on top of your game.

Would anyone want to go to a doctor who hasn’t read up on the latest advancements or take advice from a lawyer who doesn’t read the law journal?  My guess would be “no,” to both. So, guess what? Divinationists are no exception.

"I know everything! Wait, what's that smell...?"

“I know everything! Wait, what’s that smell…?”

There are so many techniques, resources, perspectives, and facets to the Tarot, alone, let alone the entire industry, that if a divinationist puts on the graduation cap, the client’s the one that’s going to get a headache. Reading blogs, watching trends, listening to other viewpoints, even getting readings from other pros can broaden your horizons and keep you sharp. The more you know, the more you can give.

But, there is a lot of information — and misinformation — out there. Who do you listen to? How do you know which perspective is valuable and which isn’t? How do you decipher the treasure from the trash? That’s where your instincts come in. If something doesn’t seem right to you, then most likely it isn’t. But, letting pride get in the way of double checking yourself and extending your research is a colossal mistake. Correcting or debating a point without absolute confidence or the openness to be wrong is a crime against your reputation and your own personal development.

Education, on the whole, not just formal institutionalized learning, should be pursued for no one’s satisfaction but your own. Quite frankly, nowadays, that’s all it’s good for, anyway.

Education is a generously selfish venture in which one pursues for its own sake. Higher learning is no longer the automatic pass for a six-digit salary with a membership to the high-end club, nor does it guarantee respect the way that it used to. A degree is no longer a key to the city or insurance against flipping burgers. It is, however, a noble and enriching gift that one gives to oneself when the world around them becomes stale, stagnant, and lackluster. When ones existence is stuck between the same routines, the same people, and the same aisles in the dollar store.

It is difficult to find inspiration in a cubicle or motivation from a switchboard. It is difficult to grow when your feet are planted in the same pavement on the same path from “point A” to “point B” day in, day out. It is difficult to feel proud of who you are or appreciate the organic place that you’ve been provided upon this earth when you cannot think past the immediate needs or entrenching yourself in other people’s drama that does not affect you. It is difficult to truly live when you cannot find motivation to do so.

It is difficult to serve when your tray is empty.

music-lessonsEducation, enlightenment, independent research and all the actions they entail, is brain food for the soul. It is not meant to be a replacement for life experience, but it can supplement what experience is lacking. It can open curtains to windows you didn’t notice while you’re staring at the door, waiting for opportunity to knock. It’s the map for a way out of the cell. It can provide networking to people you’d never meet otherwise, spark new ideas, give you the tools to reinvent yourself, and if you are dedicated enough, can even provide the vehicle to get you where you need to be.

Furthering your knowledge in any capacity is a cold, hard business exchange with tremendous generosity. When you’re learning from the right instructors, you are called to honor yourself. When you are learning the right material, you are called to examine yourself. When you are in the right place, the right time, doing the right actions for the right reasons, there are no obstacles. Yes, there is a chance that your reward at the end can provide you with the safety against poverty or even provide you with that brass title on your door — but, the mistake is to count on it. The true and deeper foundation of education has nothing to do with material gain and everything to do with providing yourself the tools to be the absolute best human being that you can be. So, when it’s time for you take your last breath, you can leave this world without shame and there is nothing more important than that.


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